Archive for October, 2004

Completely shocked and stoned

Friday, October 22nd, 2004

Another week past and my head is still in a state of daze unlike any in recent memory. With what little gray matter that still remains functional, I can conclude that there are three main culprits: the flu, the Red Sox and three stones lodged in my organs.

As I write this, the viral fingers of the flu that had wrapped themselves around my visage are finally starting to lose their grip, but I’m still left with the most meager serving of strength. Hell, just sitting at the desk and typing is taking all the concentration and fortitude I have at this moment. But this is the start of the upswing, so I should finally start getting back to my old self.

Well, my old self with some newly found kidney stones and a shinny new gall stone.

I am actually thankful in that regard to the flu, because it dehydrated me just enough to bring about a slight pain that I had never felt before in my life. A slight throbbing stab in my lower right side, just about where appendicitis is supposed to start. This drove me to visit Palisades Medical Center and have a twelve hour stay in the comfort of their emergency room. But without that visit, I would not have found out about these internal abnormalities.

With no windows and no clocks within my sight lines, the twelve hours felt much, much longer. If my sister didn’t make the trip up to visit for those last few hours I might have very well lost what few marbles I had left. I was subjected to two CAT scans, the first revealing only a kidney stone on the wrong side of my body to explain my pain. A second CAT scan — this time with some contrast material in my system — found the other kidney stone and the main culprit of my pain, the gall stone.

That was two Thursday’s ago, and since then I’ve been bouncing between doctors offices and the hospital being poked, prodded and drained of different bodily fluids to try and figure out both why this all happened and how to go about ridding myself of the stones. The gall stone will more than likely require surgery of the arthroscopic variety, while the kidney stones will probably just past naturally. Of course, these are stones #3 and #4, so I’m a bit puzzled and concerned why my relatively young body is rebelling against me this way.

But by far the worst pain endured was that brought on by the Yankees. I tip my hat the the Red Sox and their fans, because coming back from 3-0 down is something that had never been done in baseball before — something that can never be taken away. Of course I saw this all coming after they plastered the Sox 19-8 at Fenway but couldn’t hold on to a lead the next night.

As dominant as Rivera has been over the years, I think he’s past the point where he can be expected to be unhittable over two innings. Had someone else come in to pitch before him, maybe we would have seen a Yankees sweep. Instead, the seeds of comeback were sown and the weakness of a depleted pitching staff started to show. Honestly, I’m shocked the Yankees got as far as they did with the starters they brought to the table.

The games continuously reached well into the wee hours of the morning, and the momentum continued to swing visibly. By the end it was all I could do just to watch and hope that my eyes were lying. Too bad I’ve got 20-20.

But for Boston and their fans, I give you some words of warning: if you don’t want the talk of curses and ghosts to continue, you had better put down St. Louis. As big as the win against the Yankees was, it wasn’t the World Series. I’ve been through this back in ’94 with the Rangers and their Stanley Cup run, so I speak from experience. Hell, I’m not even gonna root against you this time — yes, I’m still rooting for the redbirds, but their is no venom in my heart for Boston.

The fevers robbed me of all my venom.

The amazingly resilient flu

Wednesday, October 13th, 2004

The flu season is upon us, and of course I had to find that out the hard way. When I started to feel ill this past Saturday night, I wrote it off to the usual effect the changing of the season has on my body — the shift from summer mode to winter mode and the necessary change in wardrobe parts. I resided myself to recoup for the rest of my weekend and just be in shape for work on Monday.

But Monday hit like a frosted sledgehammer. My head throbbed and my body shook. Obviously an extra day of bed rest was required. Hey, sometimes colds don’t work on a work-friendly schedule. It was going to screw with some of my deadlines, but it couldn’t be helped. Still, by that afternoon I had sweated away most of the fever I had in the morning and I assumed the worst was over, so I 100% guaranteed that I would be at the office the next day.

And I have never regretted a guarantee more. I was up by 5:30, shaking and shivering. I spent the restless hours piling on sweatclothes and blankets. When I finally dragged myself into the shower, I sat there under the hottest of water for a half hour to try and thaw myself. Triple layered and with head throbbing, I boarded the bus and the overly-blinding light. A head full of sick can screw with your sensitivity to light, but never before have I known it to be so painful.

How I lasted as long as I did that day at work still shocks and amazes me. Through the haze and the fever sweats I managed to focus my mind enough to work in the code for five hours, until my boss finally told me to go home and rest. Had I not made that promise in an email the night before, I doubt I would have tried something so foolish. I made a new guarantee, this time only to myself. If I awoke with a fever again, home I would stay.

Last I checked 101.7 is not standard human operating temperature.

So now the week is half gone and about the only thing I feel like I’ve truly accomplished is catching up on the myriad of Farscape episodes I’ve never had the chance to see — all thanks to my TiVo and SciFi running a marathon in lead up to a new mini-series debuting this weekend. Aliens and living spaceships make great fodder for fever dreams, let me tell you. Now armed with some industrial strength medicine that my doctor’s office so kindly arranged for me to procure, my road to recovery looks a lot shorter. But will I be in shape to hit the office tomorrow?

We’ll talk about tomorrow when tomorrow gets here.

Debate, deep space, ash and art

Wednesday, October 6th, 2004

Lately it’s been all about pushing the boundaries of the unknown. The untapped. The untried. Clarity and the like can come from such bold moves, but so can calamity. Reaching for the stars, skirting disaster. Beds of roses and brimstone, baby! Guess I had better start making some sense instead of talking in overly idealistic tones, huh?

The political landscape is changing. We’re now in the think of debate season and after one presidential and one vice-presidential round I’ve got renewed hope that we might just dodge the bullet of four more years of Bush. Kerry’s performance made George look like a deer in headlights and killed the post-Republican convention bounce, making this race a dead heat once again. If only G.W. could have taken some of Cheney’s talent for that affair, even though he took some stiff shots from Edwards on things like Halliburton and Bremer’s quote earlier in the day that “we never had enough troops on the ground” in Iraq.

The natural landscape is changing, as Mount St. Helens continues to rumbling and belch out steam and ash. Something is coming, but what exactly we’re not sure of. Unless the whole mountain goes boom I highly doubt it will be as spectacular as the blast from 1980, but it should be spectacular to see never the less.

The boundaries of space are changing. What used to be a realm for superpower governments has now ben kissed by the private sector, as SpaceShipOne has claimed the Ansari X Prize. While we’re not all living on cities floating in space with our rocket cars and our time shares on the moon, this is the first step that will make all that come to pass. The space tourists are already lining up to spend hand over fist for the opportunity to experience the thrill.

Even on a personal level, change abounds. I’m into week three of classes at the School of Visual Arts in their continuing education course, and enjoying the stimulation. The two disciplines: Flash and Illustration Basics.

So far, Flash has been all I expected of it: boring and repetitive for the first two weeks as we review the application and the tools, but interesting once we got into actual methods of animation, linking, actions and the like. While I probably could have learned this all from a book or two with some solo practice time, the structure and lecture parts are why I’m paying to learn. The assignment structure won’t hurt this scatterbrain, either.

As for Illustration Basics, everything about the class has exceeded my expectations to this point, and I don’t see that going downhill anytime soon. While I was under the assumption that this would involve sketching with pencil and paper, instead I’m now investing time in doing collages, working with acrylics and being heavily engrossed in our class discussions. My teacher has had works grace the cover of Time and Newsweek, so he knows what he’s talking about and I sit like the eager sponge to sop up all this insight and information.

The group of people in the class itself are the portrait of diversity: in race, in ethnicity, in backgrounds we are as dissimilar as you can possibly get. Yet, there is the common bond of our artistic interests and I’ve got the feeling that there is more in common with us that what separates us on the surface.

Times of change can be good times.