Question: Can you consider your quality of life good if you’re always working? Kind of hard to enjoy the life around you when you’re always sitting around, head buried in work — my Saturday night in a shell for this weekend, and far too many like it to count in this year. Then again, I did kind of ask for this when I decided to try and build a business of my own. Now if it would just start paying equal wage for time served.
One thing I did manage to find time to do in the winter just past was put away a book or two, including Microserfs (read some of it here). Douglas Copland has yet to disappoint me, but maybe it hit a stronger chord with me because I can relate to the characters as they are in the beginning of the book. Same kind of mentality — work is life, because they have no life to speak of. I feel very much like one of the peripheral characters while trying to graduate to the central role.
I’m not content with things at the moment. The ratios of need to be tweaked to include more socializing, or at least some damn motivation. Even when I do venture into the void I usually keep to myself. It’s almost like I’ve become more isolated the further into urban living I’ve gotten, which is certainly not how it was advertised to me. Ignorant suburban kid syndrome maybe? Maybe having the solo crash pad is just reenforcing antisocial behavior? I’ve come a long way, but there is still miles to go.
Tomorrow I drop a year’s worth of receipts onto my accountant and meet up with an old acquaintance in our regular venue in Belmar. Her call some months ago was just as unexpected as the apology she gave me. Why am I even doing this? Chalk it up to curiosity. I was in her mind enough to have her get a phone number from our mutual friend, for her to make that awkward phone call. Maybe some maturity has set in. I go into the meeting with a clean mind and zero expectations except to have a good cup of coffee. Everything beyond that is a bonus.
Well, back to the salt mines. I’ve got a design that I promised to have done on Wednesday that I’m still breaking code on. I’ve got to learn how to estimate time and cost more efficiently or I’ll end up in an early grave.